I should be opening a word document instead of blogging about my feelings right now. I should use what I feel as an avenue for creativity, and I probably will after I vent for a bit.
For people who know me, I think they would agree that I am a loyal friend and I readily make myself available to any friend of mine who needs me whether it's a serious matter or not. I hate when this is not reciprocated. I just do not understand how it is so difficult to return a phone call. A text message. An email. A freaking facebook message. I am tired of being the only one who feels like maintaining a friendship.
When we become adults we accumulate a multitude of responsibilities and life sometimes runs away with our time. When I was at my busiest working at Wal-Mart, taking a full load of classes, and being involved in ministry, I worked hard at keeping up with people I cared about. I am literally crushed. This makes me question whether or not I'm worth the amount of time I put into others and that is wrong.
Of course I don't feel this way about all of my friends, in fact, most are wonderful (that's why they are my friends). I wish more people were self-aware of how they trample over other people's feelings I guess.
I'm done rambling.
