ohhh i love him so much :)
i feel so giddy just thinking about him. its crazy because we've been dating for OVER a year and seven months. there are days im just not so jazzed about eli because we fall into the same habits for seeing each other. i make dinner. we watch tv. i give him massage. he rubs my feet. end scene.
but then there are days im just so overwhelmed with how much i care about him. actually this feels more like a diary that im writing in...i just noticed im not using caps or apostrophes.
am i allowed to just say whatever i want on this? there's SO much i'd love to just dive into and discuss...and even vent about but im not sure who's reading this and im not sure who all i'd offend. it's nothing crazy bad, but im a little peeved about something. i love my boyfriend, and because i love him, im a little protective of flirty girls. it makes me uncomfortable and i'd prefer for there not to be certain lines crossed. ordinarily, they're not because eli's the best and not a very flirty person as is...but i feel like some girls are just so....i dont even know the word to describe it. i think im better off just stopping there.
you know the saying, "the road to hell is paved with good intentions"? i think thats so true. or half true. i think people think they have good intentions but impure motivations. i grew up hearing all about the sinful nature of men and i totally believe it. but i think because some people are careless in their words and actions, they don't know that they have impure motives or intentions and it gets them in alot of trouble.
i wrote a poem this week to be workshopped...and its about zombies. i knowwww it's so crazy weird. i hate zombie movies, they leave me confused and hollow. but i think the poem is good because its about a crazy person more than zombies.
i don't have any real pressing homework tonight so i didn't even blog because i was procrastinating---yay me!
that's all for now i suppose :)
<3rach
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